C'est moi

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

All nighter...

Well here's how it started... actually i don't quite exactly remember how it did... OH YEA i remember..

---> Dan (BGF) was online and (as usual) i was having escort drama stress and was telling him.. and (as usual) it ends up with me calling him..

And one thing lead to another... and we digressed from that boring, overworked, overthought topic and moved onto more important things..

First of all, something had come up about Mickey. He doesn't like her almost as much as he doesn't like Monique, actually maybe more... And he was warning me against her, like everybody else. But i already know. Sheesh.. it's not like i'm just meeting her.. i had 4 years of passing judgement and witnessing various events, before we had actually became friends.. See, with Mickey you know exactly what you're dealing with -> she doesn't mince words.. or her mouth don't have cover.. so she'd say whatever, whenever, however she please regardless. <- In other words, my complete opposite. I'm more subtle in my reactions..

But anyways... that topic wore off eventually. I had called him around 10-ish (but apparently it seems like my comp. time was wrong)... Around 1 I said "ok.. maybe i should go to bed now".. then he says "uhh shell.. it's 2, your clock is wrong".. I then check the tv guide channel and my cellie, and whadya know, he was right.

I had Grad practice today, and even though dad is back i decided to go with mom.. You know, these are the days that i'm going to miss right? So might as well start it perfectly around 7.30 am.. I'm still planning on reading all those books i had planned to.. But due to procrastination and the temptation of playing Pedro, and now Chess, with Steven and my classmates, it's been just that.. a plan

My point is that i would have had to go to bed early to wake up early and not be sleepy.. But that apparently wasn't the plan. I ended up staying up the whole night talking on the phone... We were trying to break a record for talking really long and staying up really late... and rebelling against our parents. (all through CXC they said we'd have the freedom to do what we pleased after, CXC come and gone... and we still have the same rules and curfews)

We played 21 questions... brought up random stupid stuff... etc etc...

So we stayed till morning... He wanted to see the sun rise. *stupes*.. The sky was cloudy.. and i'm in a valley... On his side, he had a beautiful view of the ocean - from the otherside of the mountain.. However, oddly enough, I was totally refreshed this morning... But after i got to school and was left in the library all on my lonesome... I started drifting in and out of sleep mode. I had never once slept in school, and i wasn't about to start. When Steven and i played Chess, i did really really bad. Not that i'm really good, but i did even worse than normal. (excluding those moments of inspiration to learn the game better)

Now i'm tired. Veronique's back too.. so we went to the pool... Oo la la. So i'm not just tired anymore, i'm extremely tired... her house is right by the water.. and the ocean breeze always makes me drowsy.... sooo i'm going to sleep. Yes, thats what i shall do.. sleep

We plan to do this over on Friday... so i'll be napping 24/7 lol... Well we have a beach lime (hangout) on Friday PLUS i'm going over by Veronique's.. so you know... Friday might just get scratched, it sounds like a lovely day to sleep. All that sea breeze is conducive for sweet dreams.

Right now, my brain is like blank. Nothing is really registering... except nice thoughts of my bed.. MmMmMmmmmm... sleep

Friday, June 25, 2004

revelations

Listening to "No such thing" by John Mayer

Well today was rather interesting... Here's how it all started...

I woke up and got ready to go to school with mom. As i'm a graduating senior, i don't HAVE to wear school uniform rather i wear anything i want. I had been wearing jeans and tees whole week and decided on a change - a mini skirt and a .. tank top its called? Or strap top?.. ummm yes.. and ofcourse my school shirt (we were getting our shirts signed and such today)

So i went and everybody was like "awww i like your skirt" and "aww you look cute today" OR "you have a date or something? How you dress up so?"... Then Tina came over and i teased her some more about her still having exams (MUHAHAHA... well she brought it up first :P.. couldn't help but be a good friend and oblige)... She's missing Guyana like crazy. Then i was telling her about my Soca addiction last night, and lmao, she got hyper too. (Real Caribbean gyal.. so the hyperness in me started all over again . lol)

Then i got people to sign my shirt - the whole class did except for Monique (long story.. explained possibly at bottom) and Ramon (he wasn't in school today).. I'll post pictures of shirt later.. Oh, i did ask Monique if she wanted to sign, and she said no.. so i was like.. ok then. Fine with me... Ofcourse, i felt like a stupidy (i didn't show it.. i'm good at hiding emotions) and then i was telling Dan and he was all like "You were showing you were the bigger person.. if she wants to be immature about it.. that's her business".. Then hear the most ridiculous thing, Shereen's throwing herself all over Garth.. She had him sign on her boob.. i was like.. what the hell... He has a GF already! Throwing yourself on him is just casting a bad impression to everybody else... She nearly beat down Mickey to get to Garth so he could sign the shirt.. i was standing there next to Mickey.. and was like.. maybe i should step back.

Today was Shikha's birthday thing... her birthday is two months away but she brought it forward as no one would actually be here for the day. I have this thing about must going to friends invites no matter what my feelings regarding the other persons are.... You know, show face, because i know i would like it if they came to my stuff too rather than just NOT come..

After Grad. practice, i had to decide how i planned to get there... Shall i go with Mickey? Shall i go with Shikha? Shall i wait an hour or two to take a ride down with mom?

Now if i went with Mickey, i'll eventually bounce back up with Shikha and them... Plus i was familiar with the people she was going with as they're all my classmates :P such as Nicholas (my new good guy friend), Garth, Shane, Robbie, Gabriel a.k.a. Gabsy, Kathy-ann a.k.a. Kathy OR my stylist, and Shereen a.k.a. Sherie...

If i went with Shikha, I'd be with Tuesday and Monique. I have no problem with Tuesday... but you see, the hang-out with just Tues and Shikha was weird enough as is a couple days ago.. It was really uncomfortable. And if i were to think really deep down, i would say maybe i have a slight bit of jealousy regarding the friendship... like i envy it, but i don't want to be a part of it, period. Going with them, with Monique there would have been twice or thrice as bad... with her holier-than-thou attitude.. I would have felt sooo out of place and uncomfortable.. SO i went with Mickey.

When we were leaving, Nick couldn't believe i was coming with them.. lol... he kept asking "for real? You're coming with us? Honest to God? You are?" and when we were leaving he shouted out to my mom and was like "We have your daughter".. lol and my mom shouted back "Robbie, you're responsible for her"... and we all started laughing.

From there, Mickey, Shane and myself went to Shane's house so that he could get a hat and his wallet. Then we walked down through a shortcut (i'm learning Grenada) and then took a bus to Grand Anse... where we bounced up with everyone else. There, we went to the mall and I bought a Sprite and an Elephant ear (oh.. and the supermarket guy was there lol.. thats another story)

Oh and one last digression... Mickey introduced me to this boy named Robyn. OMG he's soo adorable!! He's 13. When he grows up, he'd have the girls falling at his feet... He's sooo cute, and is a total sweetheart.. or so it seems

During that time, Gabsy and the rest of the boys were picking up some alcohol.. you know - rum punch, vodka, bottle of water, orange juice to chase.. (Only Kian - we bounced into him at the mall - was underaged and had a fake ID.. i didn't realise how many kids in my class were soo old... I'm like a baby in comparison. Ramon's 20! Shane's the oldest at 20.. probably beating Ramon by a couple months.. Gabs is 19)

Then the whole posse moved to KFC to get ice - that is everyone mentioned above including one more, Naomi - she's in a lower Form. Then we went on SGU campus, at the cafeteria at the beach... where i bounced into Sergey.. *sigh*

Sergey was SUPPOSED to be my good friend. Atleast thats what i considered him.. When he left to go to Sweden, we somehow managed to maintain contact.. which is alot more than most people can say... Yet when i asked to find out when exactly the date he was arriving ( in Grenada for summer) about a week after he first told me, he denied ever having mentioned such a thing .. Now i've found out that .. HE ARRIVED ON THIS ISLAND... HAS BEEN HERE FOR DAYS... and EVERYBODY who's NOT his friend knows he's here... and i ONLY FOUND OUT because... Shikha came up and was like "Oh Sergey's here you know. I spoke to him yesterday." and something about Monique and him having/asking for her/his number or the other...

NOW.. Monique and him were no't any kind of friends, nor is he with Shikha, nor Tuesday...but then again i could be wrong, but that would make them hypocrites for saying the things they said about him when he's not there... BUT not only am i only the last person to know, and only to have seen his face by accidentally being on campus... BUT he might be going to the ball because TUESDAY AND MONIQUE want him to come... WHAT THE HELL?!! Are you kidding me?! When I invited him to come MONTHS ago.. he said.. well i can't remember but i know it was most definitely not a yes... And Tuesday has more influential power than me with regards to him...?! One should hear the stuff she has to say about him.. *sigh* -.-* these people confuse me..

When i saw him i was like... i greeted him... he pretended not to see me.. then i confronted him and then eventually walked away when he started up with some lame excuse...*stupes* .. let me not ruin my evening with the details of what followed after. I don't understand.. i just... really don't

*20th October, 2004*
Maybe i over-exaggerated.. It's just that i felt like i should have been one of the first people to have known, and i only found out through hearsay.. and i only saw him that day through mere coincidence... Atleast now i know where i stand right? I didn't bother to call him after the meeting, nor did he try to call me.. However, when he went back to Sweden he IMed me trying to make a joke out of it.. i think i got disconnected.. thank you C&W for doing the honours..

31st October, 2004
i'm talking back to him. Am i weak or what? He says he didn't want to embarass me because i was with my form 5 gang (seniors)... plz... i talked to him when he was still in Grenada infront of them.. i don't care for such things.. a friend is a friend... embarassed? not the word that comes to mind...

Anyways, back on course, the boys bought food and then we walked down further the beach to like a kind-of deserted run-down hut/bar. Everyone was just drinking and kixing and such.. me? I was talking to Danny for the most of it.. and having Gabs trying to convince me to try his strong rum punch mix. He think i look stupid?!

It's hard to explain it now... Mickey was giving Nicholas a massage. Shereen was drunk and was with Garth and Gabs.. nuff said. I couldn't do anything because a) I was shocked! She lied to me!! and b) Them boys already says she's 'class property'.. what's the most i could do? c) she would want me to take a *shot* of Vodka.. NO WAY am I getting DRUNK! Puh-lease.. I was talking to Daniel. Kegan was trying to jump on the roof to get to a tree. Robbie and them were just talking and stuff..

Now hear the biggest joke.. Anil came. I personally have no problem with Anil other than the fact that he mistakes his surroundings for a trash can... particularly Alex's desk and mine.. BUT the boys don't like him at all.. -.- no comment. I have no problem with the guy. About two minutes after we get there, Robbie, Kegan and Daniel show up and Anil says "them white boys only following us.." right.. the last person who should be talking about following... Anyways, we ignored his stupid little comment.


Ummm then they started playing spin-the-bottle. Oh yes, before that happened i showed Mickey a new rating for Dan (Inside thing, how i rate guys lol.. or my easy signals of my ratings that she alone knows, lol, hence the inside thing.. basically, i like him again a little bit)... Shereen was spinning it and calling who and who should kiss etc etc... Me and dan wasn't in it.. THEN all of a sudden i heard my name being called.. with another!! Next thing everybody was saying was "Daniel and Shellon"... My reaction - WHAT?! I'm wasn't playing!... I continued talking but they kept teasing Dan. Next thing he's like.. turn your face.. so i was like.. huh? (As i didn't see how it related to what we were talking about).. Then he kisses me. My eyes open wider in shock. I honestly didn't see it coming.. It was a peck lol. Mickey was like "what kinda hollywood movie kiss is that?".. I ignored her.. i think i was blushing.. lol .. tina must not find out about this ..

Then Nicholas was on one side of me, Mickey was sitting on him. Dan on the other, i was leaning on him. And ,lol, i dunno how exactly it happened but Shane then sat on Mickey.. These drunk crazy people. lol. Mickey was like no no no no no... too heavy. So Shane came and hugged me lol, and said "whoa you're so small. You're light. I could pick you up so easy"... (ok so he said a lil' bit more.. with the regards to umm *ahem*.. nevermind) I was about to fall because my feet was like.. a good bit away from his, so i was leaning towards him and he hugged me for longer than i expected..

Then Nicholas was pissed that Anil was there.. I really don't see the logic in what i'm about to say.. he was so mad that he just kept taking shots of Vodka.. he had like 8. When i say shots.. i mean .. 1/8 to 1/4 of a KFC coke cup worth of Vodka as a shot... Oh and all the other boys joined in.. Then they were like "Shereen and Shellon's turn".. I was like Hell NO.. And they tried and tried and tried.. and then Mickey said "No, want Miss to kill me? I'm responsible for her, I don't want her to get drunk" Thank you :P.. Then Shereen and Garth drank the shot.. or shots..

Then Kegan and them started smoking weed.. which leads to another point at which i'm pissed about.. and i'll speak of it in another entry... Shereen was included in that "them". I honestly don't know what the hell does be going through that child mind nah.. Nicholas then gets really sick, and me and Mickey started playing nurse. He couldn't walk or anything.. We had went to the mall and when we were going back to the beach, he kept like tipping over.. Mickey helped to keep him balanced, I helped to keep him from falling on the road... The whole way he just kept saying how pissed he was that Anil had come to the beach with them.. and the other boys joined in. I still think that was stupid.. then they were discussing how Anil didn't do anything. How he faked smoking weed. etc etc. I don't see how that can make someone want to get drunk quick though..

And all Nicholas kept saying is "I hope your impression of me hasn't changed" (to me).. then he felt really bad because he felt responsible towards me. I could handle myself, plus i have Mickey, so he need not be worried.. But he still felt really bad...

Then Shane and them came and stayed with him.. it was getting late and 2 girls on a beach does not indicate safety.. Oh and they took him home.

Hmm i learned alot today... i never knew they were such good friends because they're always teasing each other.. like really mean.. But when it came down to being there for each other.. the first person Nick said to call for was the last person i thought he would.. he kept saying "Call Shane, he'd make sure i get home safely".. i was like awwwww... When Shane came, i saw a totally different side to him. Cherisse is lucky to have him as her bf.

Then Mickey and I went to the mall to find Shikha and them.. it was a bit uncomfortable - as predicted.. but i had fun today. It was something different.. But i don't want to become like them..

Ok honestly, a part of me was like really reserved... i was kinda there, but not quite... my mind being somewhere else.. I dunno whats wrong with me.. I couldn't just let myself have fun totally.. I was worrying about little things... and missing the moment... perhaps?.. A part of me kept holding back.. hmm... i guess when you make keeping your distance a habit.. that's what happens..

Oh well.. it's gonna change.. No i'm not going to become a drunk nor a loose girl :P MOST DEFINITELY NOT... watch me pull out the brakes on that one... Hmm.. NY would help alot. Change of scenery.. i need to be away.. way away from here.. to think

Oh and i saw Brookie today.. with Jonathan.. That girl is a fool... She's still running after him for heaven knows what.. She asked for them to be together again and he said "no, you cheated on me.. you did this.. you did that".. HELLO BROOKIE he had sex with you and posted it online and sent it to EVERYONE, including your family... like your dad here and your sister..... IN AUSTRALIA..! which do you think is worse? (and that's just a pinch of the whole story... -.- I don't understand.. i really don't)

(yes i'm trying to reduce my use of 'like'.. bad habit)

Essentially - i didn't expect to feel so welcomed and all.. And they all felt responsible towards me.. awww *rolls eyes* I'm not a baby.. sheesh.. But another cute thing was that whenever the guys swore, they would be like “sorry” or stop halfway and substitute with another word. Isn’t that nice and gentlemanly..?

Oh and nope, my like ratio dropped back down to normal levels in the Dan department. *Phew!* that was close..

Monday, June 21, 2004

And it stings when it nobody's fault...Cause there's nothing to blame

Listening to "Time after time" by Cindy Lauper

Well nothing that new and interesting happened today... except for a couple minor highlights and lowlights...

Today was the first day of Graduation practice. Mom woke me up at 6 to get out of bed for 6:30... how many teenagers do you know finish h.s. just to come back the next morning even earlier? Well, i had no choice as that's my only ride to school... walking home is one story, walking to school is another... Well anyways, it was ok. The rest of the school had end-of-terms which meant i had the Bio lab as well as the library all to myself. In other words, time to catch up on some quality reading time.

First, i got the key for the library and opened the door. Turned on the lights and realized that after 5 years, i STILL don't know how to put on the fan... So i settled for the next best thing, i opened all the windows. Claimed a teacher's chair (most comfy chairs in the school) although there was no other person running competition to get one with me. I then placed the chair at the huge center table and sat, suddenly realizing how tired i was. After attempting/failing to persuade mom to drop me back home, i decided to update my livejournal account on my cellie. Then Naomi and Steven arrived... Thus, my alone time bonding session with the library has been interrupted, lol.

Then i got up and looked for something to read and found some National Geographic books... and in my sleepy state, flipped through the pictures, stopping every now and then to interrupt Steven from his reading and say "Do you know what this is?" (he looks so funny when he's annoyed)

*-* Steven. He's this short (like really short..ok my height, same equivalent in my book :P) boy in my class. No one really knows much about his background. He lived in Canada previously but he speaks like a million other languages... which he refuses to tell us what they are.. I think it's german and russian (he reads books in other languages too)... Anyways, he's so cute and funny when he's annoyed... And he gets embarassed and blushes so easily. On the downside... i don't think he truly understands to what extent the words that come out of his mouth really mean. Hence, he gets slapped and strange looks often. Most recently from me.*-*


Then Shikha came and reminded me of her thing on Friday... SEE i KNEW i would forget.. and unfortunately my whole weekend has already been pre-planned.. BUT being the good friend that i am, i am going to try my bestest to show face for atleast an hour. I can't NOT go...

So after that we ended up playing Pedro, and i couldn't focus so i was playing a lil' crazy... i was too tired plus Nicholas came.

*-* Nicholas, another classmate. Cool guy. And looking kinda cute recently when you get pass the chubbyness factor... he's cute in a cuddly teddy bear way
^^*


Then, we had graduation practice.. and as fate would have it - you can't avoid someone for the rest of your life... stupes... stupid fate. Not only is Monique directly behind me in line, but she's on my immediate right on stage too... AND it gets worse.. I sit between her and Tuesday.. Today, they talked over me -.- .... it is RUDE to talk over people... Anyways, i'm waiting for some body to make some comment about this seating arrangements. Hopefully, her parents would hear about it and be outraged that we're sitting together and have her moved to the other side... And if that doesn't happen, i'll just have to show i'm bigger than that. A lil' inconvenience never hurt anyone..

*-* Monique is the... long complicated story. We were best friends for like 7 years... then a series of stuff happened... we're not anymore.. both to blame... now try our best not to cross paths. Or i try my best.. Since then, on a brighter note, i've changed for the much better.. *-*
Well.. i have to get up and do the same thing tomorrow.. Go to school, keep my cool, act tough... come home and plan for the afternoon... nite nite, need my sleep:P

Sunday, June 20, 2004

New-found decisions


Today was dedicated, or rather this week, to self-analysis. You know, all the things i want to change... and with a little determination and will-power i can change it... OR i can just wait till the 15th. The best time to work - when i'm thousands of miles away... you know, put that 6 hour flight to good use.

Well other than that, my day was OK. The icing of the cake was... *drumroll* TALKING TO BONI and NAGGING him to do a blog. Yes, i'm nosy about his life. (Oh and he finally did, you may wanna read it *wink*)

So from about 8(according to Boni) to now, i've been chatting with him. Anyone who really knows me, should know that i love to take pictures - and have my picture taken. My mom was making some summer dresses for me, you know, to sport in. AND Boni just happened to be online... so i thought "Why not cam?"

At first - i didn't like it. The style was originally supposed to be a halter, but it turned into a strap dress. Since Boni IS a guy, i decided to seek his opinion about how it looked... and after that i ended up modelling my whole closet! :D It was fun!!

And then we ended up chatting away - as usual.

nite nite peeps

Friday, June 18, 2004

My horoscope stuff... and APPARENTLY what it 'supposedly' says about me...

Sun Sign Profile

Gemini
May 21 - June 21

Gemini is the third Sign of the Zodiac, and those born under this Sign will be quick to tell you so. That's because they love to talk! It's not just idle chatter with these folks, either. The driving force behind a Gemini's conversation is their mind. The Gemini-born are intellectually inclined, forever probing people and places in search of information. The more information a Gemini collects, the better. Sharing that information later on with those they love is also a lot of fun, for Geminis are supremely interested in developing their relationships. Dalliances with these folks are always enjoyable, since Geminis are bright, quick-witted and the proverbial life of the party. Even though their intellectual minds can rationalize forever and a day, Geminis also have a surplus of imagination waiting to be tapped. Can a Gemini be boring? Never!

Since Geminis are a mix of the yin and the yang, they are well represented by the Twins. The Gemini-born can easily see both sides of an issue, a wonderfully practical quality. Less practical is the fact that you're not sure which Twin will show up half the time. Geminis may not know who's showing up either, which can prompt others to consider them fickle and restless. They can be wishy-washy, too, changing their mood on a simple whim. It's this characteristic which readily suggests the Mutable Quality assigned to this Sign. Mutable folks are flexible and go with the flow. Further, the Twins are adaptable and dexterous and can tackle many things at once. It's a good thing, too, when you consider their myriad interests. The downside of such a curious mind, however, can be a lack of follow-through. How much can any one person do, anyway?

Ruled as they are by the Planet Mercury, Geminis exhibit a delicious brand of mercurial energy. They are quick-thinking, quick-witted and fast on their feet, much like the messenger god of Roman mythology that rules their Sign. Geminis are both curious and clever, which is why they are such a hit at cocktail parties. Although they talk a great game, they also love to listen and learn. With any kind of luck, the Twins will find themselves in interesting company, because if they don't, they are likely to get bored and start fidgeting. Any social setting is a good one for a Gemini, however, since these folks are charming, congenial and love to share themselves with their friends. While their effusiveness may be misconstrued as scheming by some, Geminis generally have their hearts in the right place. It's that ample energy which can also paint them as scatterbrained and unfocused, but behind all that zipping around, the Twins are busily filing all that good data away.

The Element associated with Gemini is Air. Air Signs are the thinking person's Sign, and the Twins don't disappoint. Those born under this Sign prize intellect and consider it the key to all things. At work, they are the clearest of thinkers, looking at a project from all (well, at least two) sides and putting forth some logical and well-thought-out ideas. This quality makes Geminis an asset to any team, and while these folks are not inclined to take the lead, they are a most valuable component. It's also the Gemini's literary bent which allows them to offer a useful perspective on most any situation. The Twins also enjoy bringing their objective reasoning and big-picture ability into their personal relationships. While some may perceive all this logical thought as cold and unemotional, it's simply how these folks tick. They want to connect, they just do it their own way. Luckily for Geminis (and their pals), their lightness of spirit and youthful exuberance help them to appear forever young. In keeping with that skip in their step, Geminis enjoy short road trips -- and their agile minds and nimble hands ensure that they could change a tire (if needed) in no time flat. Is all of this Twin-energy more than any one person can handle? Ah, maybe that's why they are two.

When it comes to sports, Geminis would seem a natural for doubles tennis -- and they are. They love the camaraderie of games and play, which is why they excel at team events. Whether it's volleyball or a game of Charades, Geminis are always ready to play. A book club would certainly stimulate their literary minds. In the game of love, Geminis are playful, flirtatious and endless fun. Physically speaking, Gemini rules the nervous system, which is why Twins should practice yoga or deep breathing techniques. Layering themselves in soft yellows and blues will also calm their mood.

The great strength of the Gemini-born is in their ability to communicate effectively and to think clearly. Adventures of the mind are what the Twins are all about. They also love to share themselves with their friends, and they make for charming companions.





My Passion Sign
Pisces

You are a highly sensitive being, usually able to actively connect your emotions to those around you. This ability makes you honest in your responses and reactions. You are sensitive, empathetic, and compassionate. Mars in the the sign of Pisces enables you to use tremendous energy towards helping and understanding others. It is important that you retain some of this innate love for others for yourself. You may have a hard time being decisive, leaving you overwhelmed with options. However, you have an artistic nature and are capable of expressing your multi-level experience of life through creativity. You may not especially enjoy confrontation or conflict, even when it can work to your benefit! Anyone who desires a romantic, sensual partner has definitely found perfection in you. You offer selflessness and affection to your lovers and are happiest when you and your partner are at peace.




Preferences by the Sign

Gemini
May 21 - June 21


Books:
Bored easily and always ready to learn, the Twins will dive into short stories, educational books, fiction or cartoons. You'll read anything from Shakespeare to Updike to Simon Singh and finish off the day by going through C.S. Lewis' complete Chronicles of Narnia.

Career:
Ad writer, Announcer, Auctioneer, Author, Auto dealer, Book seller, Broker, Bus driver, Cartoonist, Commentator, Concierge, Correspondent, Courier, Debator, Dispatcher, Distrubutor, Driver, Franchiser, Illustrator, Impersonator, Information analyst, Information clerk, Interviewer, Journalist, Librarian, Linguist, Mail, carrier, Manicurist, Media personnel, Mime, Mimic, Narrator, News commentator, Novelist, Orator, Playwright, Printer, Reporter, Speech pathologist, Spokesperson, Taxi driver, Transcriber, Truck driver, Weather forecaster

Chocolates:
Makes their chocolate choice by sticking their finger in each piece.

Food:
Gemini is always on the go, so they're looking for food that they can pick up and run with or that they don't need to spend forever preparing. The Twins are fond of ginger and parsley. As an Air Sign, they're looking for variety.

Movies:
While you’re a voracious reader and an intellectual, you enjoy a laugh, too. A comedy with endless possibilities, like Groundhog Day or Sliding Doors, might make your evening. On the other hand, you can't go wrong with something that gives you pause for thought. Try out Pi or Being John Malkovich.

Music:
The Twins download MP3s with the best of them. Your CD collection looks like a timeline of randomness from the last several decades. You listen to the Go Gos, Duran Duran, the Goo Goo Dolls, and Oingo Boingo as the world was still learning of Danny Elfman. For fun, pop in Adam Sandler or Denis Leary.

Restaurants:
The intellectual and airy Twins like to keep dinner light. While fast food will do, you’re also willing to broaden your horizons by trying different types of food.

Sports:
The versatile and flexible Twins will enjoy sports played as a pair or any sort of sport that stretches the mind, such as doubles tennis, croquet, billiards or bobsledding.

Travel:
Denmark, Egypt, Greece, Iceland, Las Vegas, Sweden, Tonga

Television:
The Twins like little bits of everything, so you probably go for the MTV style of flash images and quick soundbites. Variety is the spice of life, so the remote never leaves your hands. When you want trivia, though, you know when Jeopardy or Who Wants to be a Millionaire is on.



hmmm.... could it be true :P ... barely


Thursday, June 17, 2004

Listening to "Pieces of me" by Ashlee Simpson (don't you just love
this song?)

hmm... who am i kidding? I'm going to cry like a baby at my graduation. All the songs are sad...

Possible graduation songs...

Vitamin C - Friends Forever (Graduation song)

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly




Baz Luhrmann Lyrics - Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering
experience…I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you Sing Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
people who are reckless with yours. Floss Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with
yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements. Stretch Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe
you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your
choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people
think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever
own.. Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room. Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young. Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
noble and children respected their elders. Respect your elders. Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
might run out. Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
look 85. Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it’s worth. But trust me on the sunscreen…




Eve 6 - here's to the night

4:09

So denied so I lied are you the now or never kind
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name on the line along with place and time
Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon




If we hold on together - Diana Ross

Don’t lose your way
With each passing day
You’ve come so far
Don’t throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Somebody is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

When we are out there in the dark
We’ll dream about the sun
In the dark we’ll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

Blogs..


Listening to "Come down Father" by Beres Hammond

"...Wish it never had to be, the way I see, this world running
Shouldn't have to be, cause now everyone's cup is filled with
hate and overflowing
Father, a nuff things a gwan round ya, it's wickeder than
before,
We really believe we coulda run things, but it nuh look so
anymore...."

Boni's blog
My cellie blog ... oh blog that i mainly use my cellie to update.

hmmm a couple more you say? Oki dokes, i'm not one to deprive the people of what they ask for...
There's My thoughts. Mine
Xiaxue- Everyone's reading it

Yes i am idle with nothing better to do. I can't drive and i don't take public transportation... soo no beach, no mall, no anything.. unless i find someone to get my from point A to B and back... It's Tuesday, which is significant in that i don't have to go to school, and the majority of the rest of the island does. And many students in Form 5 are not as fortunate as i am to have finished as they all do Inte. Sc... so no friends to lime with at the mall. *ahem* i mean chill with.


OMG! Someone just called, after the "Hello, good morning" they asked "where dis is?".. so i was like.. 'uhh umm who'd you like to speak to?'... She then says, 'the police station'. I then say, 'sorry you have the wrong number'. She then proceeds to ask "Can you please give me the number?" ... Me 'sorry, i don't have it'... SLAM! (she slammed on me, i was on a cordless..these locals)

I then looked at the Caller ID and it said Mavis Regis... NOW WHERE DO I KNOW THAT NAME FROM.... MEKELA!!! oh reg reg...

It's 7.30 a.m and i'm tired as hell. Quiero dormir! Quiero dormir... pero no puedo dormir. Porque, yo estoy solo en mi casa *sigh*

Oh i mean, i can't go back and sleep because i'm the only one home. See, i personally think i'd be better off going to school in the HOPES that Steven is there to play Pedro.. because there's still a couple more exams to go.. like Integrated Science. Hmm... be the perfect idler, just roaming along the hallways; looking at all the students in the exam hall doing their exams; pointing and laughing. heh heh heh, they have what? Another 1-5 years more to go before they can sing the freedom song?

*yawn* *stretch* I'm going to miss my school. Sure it had plenty of ups and downs, but i know that i won't be able to find another school with the same treatment.

I don't think it's possible to find a school where you can... be too sick to take an exam or to do homework and get an extended date (like with those headaches) because you know how illness affects your thinking *wink*... A school where students and teachers are pretty close despite all the lil' fallouts, you know, like Mr. B at break time always telling us about his childhood days... Place where teachers actually care alot about you individually and ACTUALLY know you, and you're not just another face or number. Thanxs to Mrs. O for giving up her free periods, lunch breaks, time at home, etc etc just to help me with my Math. If i get a distinction, she's the first person i'm going to thank! *grins* honour board... MmMm ... in order to make it on that board, it doesn't matter whether you excelled in all your other subjects OR in even if you did well enough to recieve awards and stuff... because without a distinction in Math and English, you're not even considered... Pray for me people... is it possible to go from a 47% to atleast 80%, or did i make my usual 300 simple mistakes? Let's hope the markers at CXC are lenient this year.

*Saturday, October, 24th, 2004*
Not only did i get my distinction in Math - I didn't just get an ordinary, barely made-it-there Grade 1 - I got the perfect Grade 1, that is the straight A profile. All those extra classes - including those on public holidays, and sacrificing of sleep on late nights paid off.

I passed all 11 subjects - No Grade 3's.. Only ones and twos. Um. . . I have 7 distinctions in Math, English, Lit., Geography (straight A profiles in those 4), History, Social Studies and Principles of Business. Four 2's in Bio, IT, Art and Spanish.

And that rumour that was going around that 3 people were running for island scholar and i was part of it - I wasn't. However, the boy who might get it (classmate and my "competition") recieved ten 1's and one 2 (i think)... Overall came up to 25 A's.. I have 23. *smiles contentedly* I didn't do as well as i expected but i have my distinction in Math and i'm happy.


HOWEVER, i'm happy to get out now.

NEW topic, *gasp* i actually looked at football the other day.. well for about 2 minutes and heard about the game on the radio the following morning. USA vs. SpiceBoys *laughs* Ofcourse we didn't win, it's the US BUT we put up a good fight. According to Kegan and them, we had a good strategy and all but after US made one goal, plans changed. Or as Anil put it "Dey start playin' wild wild" Halfway through the game, all of them were burnt. The next match is ummm the 20th i think. I just MIGHT watch a li' 2 minutes so that i'll have some idea what everyone is talking about
P.S. why do they call it Soccer? It's called FIFA no FISA :P

But i'm not here for Grenada now am i? i hear the mall calling my name... what's that? Come see if the American team is cute?... oh sure, my pleasure. *rolls eyes* please, i have better things to do... the American med school students are WAY cuter.

BONI'S BIRTHDAY

I can't believe i didn't mention Boni's birthday amongst the list of good events that happened today.

After being stuck, in yet another Friday situation, i was left no choice but to choose the company of Giselle or Monique. *weighs options* Hear Giselle talk about herself, herself and herself some more... and then conclude with a discussion of her modesty. Monique, go down that road again... and be pretend to be someone i'm not anymore... Yes - stuck between a rock and a hard place.. The person i dislike the most and the person i avoid the most -.-*

Well today was Boni's birthday - Hence the title. One of my favourite people to talk to.. which explains why i'm still online around 3 in the morning some nights..

Oh well, its for the love of the family. *hugs Boni* The day is only as bad as you think it.. and most people complain about looking too old... You're gorgeous. *wink* ... and some of us have no trustworthy friends.. and some of us have people who forget birthdays too *looks at Ryan*...

Hmm.. cheer up old chum, now my bed is calling me... ciao babes, ciao world

Monday, June 14, 2004

Listening to "I can't get no sleep" by DJ Keoki (blame it on Ser
for introducing me to trance/techo)
*dances with glow stick*
*hmmm looks up lyrics and observes its originally by
Faithless... called Insomnia ... interesting"

"So when it's black this insomniac take an original tack
Keep the beast in my nature under ceaseless attack
I gets no sleep
I can't get no sleep..."

Ok now i'm off my song obsession, soOoOo hmmmm....

... EXAMS ARE DONE! Which means there's nothing else left for me but to par-tay!! Since i'm not going to be here for the actual Carnival, i have to get a piece in all the pre-Carnival festivities -- what sucks too is that they keep flaunting that this year might be the best Carnival, i hope it rains :P -- Starting with Glitter 2.

I honestly have no idea what exactly Glitter is actually, but mom seems to have some idea... and it's absolutely no use trying to persuade her to go to Foxx Inn Poolside concert. OH WELL... who knows.. Glitter could actually turn out to be something of substance :-/... well one can hope

I mean -- think about it, really think about it --- Machel Montano, Denise Belfon, Shadow, Tall Pree, Inspector OR girls covered in gold glitter? Hmm tough decision :P

Saturday, June 12, 2004

Bittersweet symphony

Listening to "Our lips are sealed" by the GoGos

" Did you know ???



Did you know that when you envy someone, it's because you really like that person?


Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weaklings and most succeptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need some one to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are : I love you,Sorry and help me The people who say these are those that actually need them or really feel them, and they are the ones you really need to treasure, because they have said them.


Did you know that people who occupy themselves by keeping others company or helping others are the ones that actually need your company and help?

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?

Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy thier beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that those who need more of you are those that did not mention it to you?


Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writting than saying it to someone in the face?But did you know that it has more value when you say it in the face?

Did you know that what is most difficult for you to say or do is much more valuable than anything that is valuable that you can buy with money?

Did you know that if y ou ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.


But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself , if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned of,and you know that you can help,you'll see that it will be returned in two folds.

DID YOU KNOW THAT YOU COULD ALWAYS COUNT ON ME???... AT THE MOMENT, TIME AND PLACE THAT YOU NEED ME, CALL ME, I WILL BE THERE WITH YOU !!!!!


"One day, we mad people will change the world...or we are already changing it " THE BALL IS NOW IN YOUR COURT... If the world were to end in 24 hours,all the phone lines, chat rooms and email will be saturated from people sending messages to others, saying: "I regret having made you feel bad", "Pardon me", "I love you", "I hold you in high esteem", take good care of yourself" and sometimes "I have always loved you, only I never told you". "


^ ^ from an email i recieved.

OMG

I found out how to do invites... hmmm *gets idea* *wink*

Friday, June 11, 2004

...

Listening to "Pieces of Me" by Ashlee Simpson

Hmmm.. well today was rather... familiar?

Familiar in a bad way... Hmm.. I hate it. See, this is one of the more major reasons why going away this summer is so ... important?

i can't explain it... i've sat here for about a half trying to find the words to make sense... but i can't.. so i'll just keep it in my head..

hmmm i feel confused... and conflicted.. and.. *sigh* my flight is only 33 days from now...

On a high note, although i'm missing Carnival this year, I will not be missing Glow. Oh yea *wink*. It's on the 18th of this month SOOOOOO you know. It's hello Machel, Destra and Bunji!!

Thursday, June 10, 2004

i love you when you dance... when you free style in trance... so pure... such an obsession

WEEELLLLLLLLLLL GREAT NEWS!!!!
























I HAVE AN ESCORT! The ball was in my court for all my options... that is Ben, Kaiz and Timmy (i'll say how timmy got back into the equation later)..
Now Ben was online making one of those famously rare appearances of his and it struck me --> perfect opportunity <-- HOWEVER, I don't know if Mickey had made plans or anything yet.. so i called.

She was like "So you're not going with Timmy anymore..?". Then it struck me, before Mickey and I became friends she was tagged in my book as one of those people that has the natural tendency to exaggerate some events LIKE this one. She went it over with me, and i was like... wait.. you had me freaking out about my reputation and all... for that? That's nothing.

So i asked Timmy, who basically said yes.

Next topic, I had Sos multiple choice today. It was easy as pie. I finished a 75 minute paper in 30 minutes (as did the rest of the class)... But i stayed in extra to hide behind Karisha (she was infront of me) and write down a couple of the new questions so that the teacher's can get an idea of whats going on now... you know, cheat the system a little. You see, CXC has stopped showing teachers the M.C. papers... BUT students can go in with their timetables, even photocopied ones which is blank on one side. *wink wink* that is all regarding that topic.

Ummm... You know what strange thing has recently started back. Tuesday has started calling me again.. I mean, i have no problem with that, but the friends who call each other frequently stage had been downgraded for months now. I wonder what has made the difference... hmm should i be worried? What evil plot have they thought up now?

*stretch* *yawns*

So today was good.

Hmmm my closing discussion is regarding the silly Carib beer ad.

"Life is good. Life is fun. Life is a Carib. Carib is life"

Are they implying that you must drink beer to have fun, leading to eventual alcoholism for life to be good?

*Tuesday, 26th, Oct. 2004*
In the end i went with David - none of the three named above. And looking back :P Looking for prom dates for that night was a bit over-rated... In the end, some people still didn't have dates and, those who did.... most of the guys became wall flowers and the girls became the center of attraction on the dance floor.

Sunday, June 06, 2004

You want the truth, well you can't handle the truth :P

Ok i essentially came here to write about what happened last night/this morning. However that will have to be postponed till tomorrow/today.

I started to type about half hour ago but i got sidetracked.

I can't believe this... Boni is willing to fly all the way to Grenada just to see Mickey. WTH! He just met her! I don't see it!


*10 minutes passes*
LMAO! He's such a guy! I'm killing myself with laughter... which just proves my point - he doesn't want a gf, he wants a fling. HA!

*5 minutes passes*
I'm beginning to see Dan's "I hate to see good people get hurt" theory. I can't watch... i'm warning him. I'm telling him full on why it's not a good idea but is he listening to me..? No. So this is how Dan felt when he saw all of us girls falling at Kegan's feet. (No i wasn't that obsessed... it was more i like him today. Tomorrow he's a jerk. Next he's an idiot. Then somewhere the following week he looks kinda cute) We knew Kegan was a jerk. We heard. We saw... but still there was something that attracted us to him...*sighs blissfully* I'll miss Kegan. *cough*

I swear he's driving me crazy. It's like talking to a wall. Everything i say, defeats the purpose of having been said. I don't understand it... what am i to do? Sit back and watch the car accident in slow mo..? Or throw myself across the road in an attempt to halt it..?

Hmm.. cars don't go to hospitals. lemme grab some popcorn and a camera.

*15 minutes passes*
SEE! He knows me too well. I know he's lying to me but i still believe him. Joking my .... "Oh i wasn't serious, i was just joking".. PUH-LEASE! *saves convo for future referencing*





Lol now that that's over... i can start what i wanted to say. (:P an hour after)

Well Mickey and i got into an arguement/discussion last night.

This is how it started - Mickey and Giselle were discussing their favourite topic Alex.

Both of them apparently don't like her anymore because she "used" them to get to Kegan. PLEASE.

Giselle and Mickey love to say how much they hate people who lie and are fake.

Mickey's definition of fake is someone who when they have a problem with you, can't just tell you to your face but has to do it behind your back. oh and judges you wrongfully.

Let me start off first by saying, Giselle's the last person who should be bawling about that. She has judged me and accused me wrongfully out of her own guilt. She has gone about behind my back to undermine me.. and honey, these things circulate in a small school... and walls between classrooms, don't exist - so i didn't hear the rumour version, i heard first hand. But no, when she has a problem with someone, she can't go up and be like - exactly what she claims other people are supposed to do. No, she's not brave enough to do it.. more of the behind your back thing.

Now, Giselle was with Kegan. Kegan was with Giselle to maintain his "Always been with the new girl" reputation. When they broke up, she's the one who called and said "You may have broken up with me, but i'm not broken up with you".. so they ended back together in some confusing way.. AND he treated her like dirt. But that's their relationship, their problem.

Alex and Mickey were best friends. Mickey knew Alex had a huge crush on Kegan.

Now, Mickey and Kegan were VERY close and Giselle used to act weird and off-standish around her... so they believed that Giselle was jealous. I believe that too since look at what she put up with and she still wanted that. Why wouldn't she be jealous of the friendship?.. Mickey now believes that that's not true because she asked Giselle and she said no. -.- right...

Now, Alex and Kegan are together and G & M are feeling used. *rolls eyes*

Both of them are saying, if Alex really cared she would come up to them and be like "what happen?"... But both of them keep shunning her and ignoring her when she does so... Then they get together and laugh about it.

I don't understand.. i really don't. Alex is making an attempt to find out what's wrong therefore that's not being 'fake'. Now there's one lil problem, M is all 'i'm done with her'... What kinda best friend is that? So let me get this right...If you're friends then you hold an ounce of loyalty and when you fall out you barely keep the secrets.. it's just about how much you can add to the 'Alex bashing' hour?

And then the judging thing... She judged me. She judged me based on everyone else's opinion and their 'issues' with my mom. When my name came up, ofcourse she put in her two cents. But did she come and tell - look i have a problem with you. So when i told her that, she then said "Oh, well that's how the world is, you can't expect me to walk up to everyone i have a problem with"


People always want to know what gets me annoyed because i never seem to get annoyed. Firstly, only people who are VERY close to me and matter, can truly make me mad or hurt me... Like Boni(one of the few that make the list) :D
Secondly, when people make bold statements about what they hate in other people... and they do it themselves. THAT annoys me.

Next, M asked me why i don't come around when she's with X group. Now these people don't like me, end of story. I'm not about to put myself in a position where i'll be uncomfortable for nobody... and she's the kinda person that would draw attention to your quietness when you don't want that to happen.

Then she has fun over other people's misery. Like, i also found out that Cher hates me, Tues, Mon and Shikha for some unknown reason - not that i particularly cared. *note statement above* M said that Cher threw stones at Shikha, and they all laughed about it... So let me get this straight - you're friends with people who do stuff to your other friends which you don't agree with and acts like that... but ... right :/ i give up

No, that's wrong... Oh well... thats how the world is right?

Friday, June 04, 2004

Choices choices...

Listening to "Friend of mine" by Treble Charger

A mere two days ago (or just yesterday), i was getting oh so close to reaching stress level 2 with this escort/ball thing. Mrs. R and her silly rules is stressing me - the no classmates rule. NOW how in Heaven's name did she come up with that one... not that anyone listens... But everyone is taken anyway and Dan does not want to have another run in with her (although he doesn't realise that the most she could do is... NOTHING... he's leaving school *sigh*)

Now that my exams are basically done, i have all the time in the world to resume to full-time stressing over this. I started off with a list of ... i can't even remember how long. But one by one, i had to X the list till i was left with 2. Don't you hate it when the ones you would prefer can't make it and ones you're left with, you can't decide?

Tim Tim and Kaiz... Now, i really appreciate mom's attempt to solve my problem of me finding an escort. It was supposed to be through my own innitiative that an escort is chosen.. But that decision has been taken out of my hands - *sigh* now people are going to think i can't find anyone by myself (worse-case scenario)... It's not really that bad because she didn't exactly ask but yes, both of them are expecting me to ask. *snickers* make 'em wait...

Mom told Sher Sher that i'm *thinking* about going with Kaiz. (which is true i have been THINKING about it... now Sherrie has been trying a matchmaker thing for months now... She told Kaiz) Now 15 minutes into being online, Kaiz pops up.. "so i hear you want to go with me to ball".. lol i have think about this. I hold the power in the palm of my hands.. Hmmmmmm this requires much thought and consideration. *wink*

NEW TOPIC
CXC came easy this year. I'm not swearing to anything nor am i saying i'm getting all Ones. I'm merely saying that the subjects couldn't have come easier.

Math was easy - sheer baby work. Chances are i'll get almost full marks in Section 2 (not that that was a problem essentially... i'm one of those back-into-front people as i can manage to get most marks in the hardest part and fail the easy part..literally)

English was beautiful.. the exam was nicely structured.

Literature was nice, i ended up doing Romeo and Juliet and it was only by chance that i had happened to have read over my notes for that book. LOL, i had been hellbent on not doing it but after much persuasion from Mr. B i ended up doing it.

(to digress a little - he's calling me Sweet 16 now *grin*. YAY i have a nick name again... when i was in Form 1,2,3 he used to call me Dimples. No that's not what it sounds like before you think it. My school is extremely small - the teachers are like parents, the students like brothers and sisters, most of them grew up with each other since kindergarden and the teachers knew them since then... I've been part of my class family for 7 years)

Art - I should get a One there. The teacher says he doesn't see how i could possibly get anything but... and that our class was more superior to the previous form 5's *thumbs up to Art Class 2004*... see teachers don't understand how vital talking, walking, eating, playing during an exam is to us students *wink* Only in art.. those are the days i will miss...

Information Technology - came easy with the exception of the stupid import in Word. There were NO if statements in Excel, i honestly have no idea how that happened. Our whole life was prepared for the toughest If statement and none came... WTH :P well that was the practical.. The make or break it part was today - Theory. And that came easy as pie (but ofcourse it can go either way, i could fail horribly or pass with flying colours.. it comes down to the legibility of my writing and my ability to sound like i have an idea of what i'm doing. j.k. i think) Questions came WAY different than it normally does. It was more like hands on questions rather than book-knowledge questions.

For example, Ques. 6 - a) List Two advantages and Two disadvantages of using a network in a place of stand-alone computers. b) You have one diskette that you use to store files related to the work you do for school, your club and home. Describe an efficient way to organize the various files on your diskette. c) You boot-up your computer but nothing is displayed on the monitor. List TWO things you would do to troubleshoot the problem... *sigh* c'mon... where's the difficulty...

And another example, 7. b)i) What is a search engine? ii) Why is a search engine useful when surfing the net?
OR 10. a) For information to be useful, it must be organized. List Two other qualities that the information must have to be useful. b) List 3 measures you would take to ensure that your computr system is protected from viruses. c) Briefly explain the difference betweem 'backing up' and 'archiving' of data. d) The election office has a large amount of vital and sensitive information. Describe 3 steps that should be taken to protect the data against deliberate theft or corruption...

Now my what i was expecting was more like... What is a syntax error, or what is the CU and ALU and what function does each serve? And then the algorithms... well that could go either way. I could write programs with Basic which is... 3rd generation langauge i think... like with FORTRAN and COBOL (I THINK!)... but the questions they asked along with the suggested answers for previous papers were structured a bit differently... but all the same, this year came nice. And yes... i'm not that computer illiterate as i lead you people to believe. I love being underestimated.


Spanish
- Orals was lovely. Piece of pie. Yo hablo espanol muy bueno. Me encanto la idioma espanol. Je parle francais aussi (But i dropped it... Stupid history... Gave up 2 of my fave subjects - Physics and French - for one that wasn't that high up the list of favourites. BUT back to Spanish. The long answer paper was pretty good, kept my letter short and sweet. M.C. is till next week.

Caribbean History - came easy as well, couldn't ask for a nicer paper. The part i flunk on comes next week (M.C. paper)... I mean its easy to write 3 pages worth of information and try to convince the marker that you have a pretty good knowledge of what you're doing... But to choose one answer out of four? Nope, i lack skills of reasoning. Martin's theory comes in here "Every answer you don't know put C".. j.k.. i'll try a thing.

Principles of Business - Came lovely. Short, sweet and to the point. *stupes* After just searching for about a half hour, i've come to the realization that i have misplaced most of my CXC papers that Tina asked for... and i can't even give a preview of the questions that came.. *sniff* i hate it when i can't find stuff... drives me crazy... The M.C. was ok as well *frown*... where oh where could it be...

Geography - at first look, i thought it was the hardest Geo paper i had ever come across... but then i looked at it again and it was easy. The last questions in Section C proved difficult in that i couldn't decide which question to do... I'm a SOS student so the Tourism part looked a breeze, the only down side that it was paired with fishing and i hadn't done fishing in over a year... BUT i remembered most of it.. The other question was based on NY and the advantages of it's location as a port, as a city, etc.. paired with questions on CBDs etc... Choices choices

Biology - biology biology biology... This and computer were on my "weakest subjects" list.. 2 weeks of pushing CXC past papers paid off. Thanx to Mr. Abe for using all his breaks to go through answers with me. Infact, pieces of questions i did with him came. The M.C. was alright, the theory was pretty good and the Structured paper was ok.

Examples of the questions that came:- 8. a)i) The products of asexual reproduction are referred to as a clone. Explain why all the members of a clone have the same genetic makeup.
ii) The following events take place during meiosis:
- separation of homologous chromosomes
- separation of chromatids

Explain carefully what each term above means and WHY these two events are important.
b) In many societies men are disappointed when they have too may female offspring and they tend to blame their female partners. Use your biological knowledge to explain why this is an unreasonable position to take.
c) i) It may be possible to use genetic engineering methods to remove a defective gene (for example, the sickle cell gene) from a zygote or gamete and replace it with a normal gene. What would be the advantages of developing this technique instead of trying to develop better treatments for genetic diseases?
ii) In the future, parents may be able to select certain characteristics that they want their offspring to have and have the appropriate genes inserted into the chromosomes of the embryo. Suggest ONE advantage and ONE disadvantage of this possibility.

And another one i did... 4. a) i) A child involved in an accident with a motor vehicle and was lying on the road, bleeding profusely. What would be the likely effects on the body, if bleeding continues for some time?
ii) On arrival at the hospital, the child was immediately put on a 'drip' ( a solution of water, salts and glucose in a specific proportion) as an emergency measure. Why do you think this was necessary?

b) i) In order for the child to survive, a series of blood transfusions were required. The child was of blood type O, while the blood groups of the parents were different from that of the cild. Ise appropriate diagrams to show ONE way in which the blood groups might have been inherited by their offspring.
ii) Many persons are reluctant to donate blood. Suggest TWO reasons why this may be so.

c) Scientists are now conducting experiments to make artificial blood. What should be FOUR essential components of the 'new blood'? Explain the function of EACH component.


And last of all... Social Studies - SOS came alright this year. Many questions came based on communication via computers.. And ofcourse i did those questions - it would be just wrong to not show that all those hours i spent chatting were not useful.

As mentioned before, i'm not saying that i got all ones. I know me, i perfected the art of making simple mistakes that result in losing a good 10-30% of the grade i should have gotten. I feel optimistic about my exams and i'm expecting ones and twos but.. you never know... Ones and Twos are As and Bs equivalents.. Hmm but CXC feels like an ordinary exam not like the exam that we were told that is so significant in our lives, and all the work we did just for that... One day, here today.. gone tomorrow..

(LOL, i started typing this up 5 hours ago.. thank God CXC is nearly done)

hmm...

Trust Mickey to bearer of bad news... She brought up my name with Ben. I don't want to go to ball with Ben. Cupid games never work with me... Then timmy is off the list. which leaves Kaiz
don't you hate last reserves?