Song i'm listening to: Jason Mraz "You & I both"

Ok i have 7 minutes to type something up here. Seee now i feel like deleting everything again and starting from scratch... BUT i'm not gonna. Atleast not tonight.

Well so i said i was going to talk about the cruise..? To tell the honest truth i'm kinda all talked out about it. It's all we're talking about (Yes, we refering to us small island people with nothing better to do). Hmm.. The highlight of the cruise was Kaiz. Now i forgot to mention dear ole' Kaiz in my little list of guys... and you know why? Because i completely forgot of his existence... until i saw him on the other side of the boat and i was like... wow. Ok. Maybe not wow. More like 'Oh, i should go say hi shouldn't i?'... but i didn't *ahem* too many people i didn't know for me to approach.

So let me give some background information on Kaiz. I knew him from WAY back in kindergarden... I was in the same class as his little brother. hehe. Well now we're both all grown up... well kinda... We met back again and actually became friends last summer by Shereen's house. He's Shereen's cousin. Whenever he was by Shereen, she would call me to come over. After a while when Sher would come to meet me on our *half way point* he'd come too. The highlight of that summer (well for July that is) was him as it gradually progressed to him walking me home and stuff. No nothing happened :P. We'd kinda flirt and stuff though and he's a real sweetie pie.

Now he's moved in by Shereen. I stop going there because we don't talk as much as before (me and Sher). With all our lil fallouts and whatnots i wasn't thinking about him. please... he's a guy... i had more important things on my mind then... BUT i did like him. As in romantic like. But as i tell everyone, i'm not looking for a bf so heh...

Back to the cruise. I didn't go. Instead when the boat moved off, i went and sat on the bench on the outer railing because the DJ was playing some real stchupid (stupid) music. It started to drizzle and just my luck... the wind was blowing in my direction and stubborn me refused to move because of a lil drizzle. He came and asked to dance.. and i said this.. and he said that.. etc etc etc you don't need details :P... For the rest of the night we danced on and off... not like we're trying to strip each other on the dance floor but more like a couple.. hmm... Then people started asking "is he your bf?".. and i well... said no because he isn't. But for that night he turned out to be my Valentine.

So for the rest of Sunday i'm all happy happy again... like boy happy because of Kaiz. See me and Tues ended up talking endlessly for hours over 'our guys'. Made something out of nothing. Yes that's how our minds work. Well for a couple hours anyways. So i can't sleep or anything because i'm thinking about him and stuff. We used to talk on the phone and what not but i stopped calling because of the whole Shereen situation.

I flew back down to earth on Monday. ONLY to be once more reminded of that night by... SHEREEN. I was like *gasp* You talking to me?! Since when?!... It went something like me being late for class and going to get my books and she's standing there and looks at me as if she's angry. I'm wondering what on earth i did now. She lifts up the hair framing her face and said "see look what Kaiz did" in a joking way. It's a tinsy winsy bruise, barely noticeable (Ok i didn't notice anything but i'm not the one feeling it am i?). I guess from a little cousinly love. And so i was kinda surprised at first at her talking to me. Then she says "See, control your man!" in a joking way again. And i started laughing and walked off (partially because my mom mysteriously appeared behind me and was like 'Get to class!').. The same afternoon, the minute i step into the house... GUESS WHO CALLS ME... yea. That's right. We don't even say good morning to each other much less glance in each other's directions... to what do i owe the phone calls?

Ok... so i forget reasons for not talking much more quickly than the reasons for. Call me gullible, naive, whatever you wish. Before that call i could have remembered every single reason that broke up that friendship.. the how, why, when, where and the who of it. Upon calling i forgot each one and we talked like normal. Then i remembered (see i have learned something over the past 2 years... it's finally kicking in)... i wasn't mean or anything. I merely made a sarcastic comment about how great a friend she was in defending me throughout the cow itch thing. She started off.. 'I was there when the person told Giselle'... YOUR POINT IS...? She should know me better than that.. She was my friend and despite whatever.. I still know better than to think some things of her and would either defend or say nothing towards any critism of such... I'd expect the same since i was her 'best friend who knows her better than anyone else ever'... and the old me would have been.. 'OH ok.. when you put it THAT way i see your point' and forgive and forget till something happens again.. which always does and the whole story start back up again... But i'm not that person and merely thanked her. Her reaction.. quick joking dismisal... hmm *sigh* almost like old times.. ALMOST...